[I used to think that I had better die]

(After the song of Mika Nakashima’s)

I used to think that I had better die,
Because I failed to tie a lace of shoe,
The more I think of it, the harder try.

When by the piers the seagulls called in sky,
Which lingered over ocean waves of blue,
I used to think that I had better die.

I try to get to somewhere faraway,
To take the train amidst the mountain view,
The more I think so, when I harder try.

Beneath the plum tree blossoming I lie,
Perhaps I am a rotten petal too,
The time I think that I had better die.

If only we had passed each other by,
If there were some good hearted ones like you,
The more I think of it, the harder try.

Your radiant smile had made me want to cry,
To live another day in hopes; it’s true
I try to stop the thought that I should die,
But more I think so, when I harder try.

Feb 7, 2021